Quiet Times are not enough

A great truth was revealed to me this evening--a great truth that God may be using to graciously reveal a very hollow and derelict aspect of my relationship with God. I realize that when my relationship with Him was most humbled and pleasurable was when I communed with Him the most often. I used to work at the Rave Theater in the Patton Creek shopping center next to the Galleria. At the Rave, when I first became a Christ follower, I would think on Him constantly and seek communion with Him perpetually. If I felt as if there were any interference, of the least amount, in my meditation on Christ during the day I would immediately being to pray that God would restore it to me. I get sick when I think about how I spend time praying and reading the Word, by God's grace sometimes encountering Him in both, and then walking out and living my life as if He had never taught me anything. How can I be so trite and foolish with His revelation as if He owed it to me? I have begun to put too much merit and security into doing a quiet time. Scripture doesn't give a picture of a quiet time's being sufficient for a man's soul. If the Holy Spirit is not renewing my mind and my soul through constant meditation of Him then I will not be ready when the battle comes directly on my doorstep.

"For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And He who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God." ~Romans 8:26, 27